Big Dog

Something to see...

http://gizmodo.com/368651/new-video-of-bigdog-quadruped-robot-is-so-stunning-its-spooky


Warning: It will eat up quite a few MBs from your monthly quota.

If you are on unlimited downloads it is worth a look.

It's funny and spooky as well, i could not stop watching it.

like the donkey

                           

I feel so sick and tired and utterly exhausted in every inch
of each and every dimension of my three dimensional body
that i just want to close my eyes and slip quietly into oblivion
until either all is over or i am... but i still keep fighting
because the day i read a little story something changed deep in me
in the very core where the reserves of strength reside,
even though my mental disposition still remains weak.

I found it very inspiring and it has helped me to keep on going
no matter what, so that i can be here if in no other way
at least by just being here, for my Loved ones.

    * * * I miss my so very much * * *


I am going to record the little story here so that i can read it
as often as i need to and for those of mine that may find it
inspiring too for their hard times.



       




One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well.

The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried
to figure out what to do.

Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be
covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbours to come over and help him.
They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well.
At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly.
Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well.
He was astonished at what he saw.
With each shovel of dirt that hit his back,
the donkey was doing something amazing.
He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top
of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up.
Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up
over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL:

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt.
The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off
and take a step up.

Each of our troubles is a steppingstone.

We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping,
and never giving up!

        * * Shake it off and take a step up... * *

The Bell of 'status!'

Me living as always in my own far away planet of thoughts
and Teddy walking around the house barefoot and inaudible
i often end up jumping out of my skin with freight
every time i suddenly discoverer him standing behind me
or coming out of a room i am walking into.

                       

So he volunteered a while back to hang a cat collar with a bell
around his ankle so that i can always be aware of where he is.

Very cute and sexy and much like i have my own ...harem boy
about which we joke a lot, yet i know not many husbands
would do this thing no matter how caring.

No need to say of course that this is a rather special case
because getting scared causes adrenalin to rush into my body
which consequently results in to many days of bleeding.

Sunday while i was getting ready for the pool
he looked rather thoughtful and preoccupied.
I thought it was due to his upcoming trip interstate
but the last minute he surprised me with a decision
to accompany me there for a swim, again so very nice of him.

We arrived early as usual in order to get a good lane
and the pool was still closed with a few regulars
waiting outside already.

On Sundays there is a young lad, a squad swimmer,
who often comes to open the Pool and when he arrived
he walked past us and proceeded to unlock the door.

While he was doing so - and as we were standing behind him
both Teddy and I observed that he was wearing a yellow,
leather like anklet, with brown shapes around his right ankle,
much like a cat collar really because of its shape, width and colour.

It seems that Teddy must have been thinking pretty much
what i was thinking, except that he had noticed something i had not
or rather i had not thought about ...

......and he leaned close to my ear and whispered:

      " He is not married .... ... No Bell! ... "


                   

tossed and turned

                 


I thought 2009 was one of the hardest years in my life
and then i had a small brief respite in the beginning of 2010
- the usual summer improvement i always get to feel -
which i enjoyed and appreciated more than ever before
but alas it did not last very long...

For many weeks now i have been physically tortured
and emotionally and mentally tormented
only because there is no action i can take that does not backfire
in one way or another creating more problems and suffering
for my beleaguered body and tired emotions.

I hate it when i feel that i have no choice...
my mind goes crazy trying to find a solution
-perhaps its way of feeling that it / i have some control
no matter how small.

I have been tossed between feeling either totally defeated
or just caught in a never ending loop which drives me to insanity
and it is only my mind's tendency to split things into levels
and create from each one - and for each one
a detached observer and analyzer that experiences
and expresses the experience in its own way
-through my blogging ...schizonalities-
that saves me from drowning in deep despair.

It is only through this tendency that i can see
that whenever i reach the end of my rope
i discover there is endlessly more to go
and when i am sinking into emotional nothingness
i discover my depths of strength are surprisingly deep
and my resolve to fight back astonishingly strong
so much so that at times i believe that my grave plaque
will be engraved with:

"Our ...near Indestructible Old Lady" Lol!

                    * * *

My mind the Bridge to my Soul

My Liberator

Nowhere to go but here and only here

Here where i feel imprisoned and defeated

Here where i discover at the end of my rope
there is endlessly more to go

Here where i turn my weakness to steely strength
Even as i feel i am melting into nothingness

Here where my defeat turns to the victory
of hope new...

The experiences, the events, and the ways they are felt
The testing grounds and tempering fire
The steel anvil of earth
Where the stars of heaven are created.

And when a tear has finally crystallised
A small diamond has just been created.